That dull part right after the beginning

I think I have left long enough, I really have nothing to blog about right now. I am planning on doing more blog-worthy activities, but now I will just rant and let the blog unravel.

O.k so the main thing I am thinking about right now is that I have recently auditioned for a play. I am supposed to receive a call telling me if I got a part or not. I am trying not to get my hopes up, but I just can't stop thinking I got the part I wanted and that I will get that call with a "Congratulations!!" instead of the more realistic "I'm sorry, but..." I have never been good at auditioning, not just in theatre but in band too. The last thing I actually got into band-wise was middle school jazz band, and I was last chair. I tend to get really nervous during auditions, it started happening right near the end of 8th grade. Before that, I had never gotten nervous, I was that little kid who screamed their only line too early and really fast in all the elementary school plays. But now I can't even take a test on a warm-up we play everyday in band without adding a pseudo-vibrato because of the shaking. Back to my other audition, I am positive I did poorly. My friend said she thought I did a good job but I can't tell if she said that because it was true or because she is my friend. It seemed honest enough but I still don't know how good "You did really good" is.

On a more calming note, it is springtime at last!! I like winter, but I am way more partial to warmth, if the only weather choices were snow and sunny day at the beach, that would make me happy. Haha, I spent most of yesterday watching Harry Potter on t.v (whilst doing homework) and playing outside. Then my dad grilled out and I get to have leftover hot dogs for breakfast. So now, I am off to live my calmly stressful life elsewhere. Tata!